Jeez! Too fast, too fast!

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Jeez! 6 months old going on 2. Noah is growing so fast. I can’t help but to wonder if Matthew grew this fast. He quite possibly could have but I just can’t remember.

I’m learning that with your first kids, everything is different. He is your first so everything is new to you. You are learning just as much as he is. With each new task he learns, you, as a mom, learn how to process this new step. You learn what foods he can and can’t eat. You know that when he starts crawling that he will most likely be into everything but you don’t actually realize all that that initials until he actually reaches that mile stone. When he starts feeding himself, you also learn what size to cut his food. You get it, with being a mom, you just learn as you go. No matter how many classes you take, nothing quite prepares you for being a mom except for being one. If that makes any sense.

Now, looking back, with my 1st son, my life completely changed. My life kinda slowed down and sped up at the same time. Because I had never experienced this mommy hood thing before, it seemed like it took FOREVER for Matthew to reach his milestones. When in reality, most likely took the appropriate amount of time. It’s just like waiting for your wedding day to arrive. It seems like the days just drag by but, in reality, it took the appropriate time. But before I knew it, my wedding day came and left. Just like Matthew’s 1st year of his life. It went by so fast and now my baby will be turning 4 in just a few days. And with Noah, it ALL is just really fast. Before I knew it, he was rolling over. Next thing, scooting, army crawling, eating cereal, eating solids, then snacks, pulling himself up on things. And now it’s time to start letting him drink from a sippy cup?! And when I walked into his room after his nap today, I found him doing what he was doing in the above picture. I am just amazed how fast his 1st year is going by. I want him to learn as much and as fast as he can but at the same time, I don’t want this time to end. 🙂

Funk to Fab

I am just in a funk y’all! I started this new blog to try and be of some encouragement to other Mommy bloggers out there, near and far, but today, I’m just not feeling it.

Sometimes, it’s ok to put your shower off and to ignore the laundry for a little bit while your kids are sleeping (at 8:30 in the morning) and just write what’s on your heart. I get in the funk about once every couple of months. I’m sure everyone does at one point in there lives.

A couple posts ago, I said that “right now, I am on a mountain…”. And I was. But I knew (just didn’t know when) that I would be knocked off of that mountain sooner or later. God didn’t promise me I’d stay on that mountain, He said there would be trials, too.

Your mind can do horrible things to you. And the worst thing you can do is think. Think about the past, or think too much into something that was said at random, or think too much into a gesture.

I’m not a well known person. I’m just well known in my own little world…with my family especially, with my friends, with social networkings sites…

Now I am just such an optimistic person and I try to offer upbeat advice and especially prayers as much as I can. I know that I used to be a pessimist. I know I used to vent on FB and I know I was in an extreme bad mood for 9 months out of the year last year while I was pregnant. On top of being pregnant, I was losing someone who was and will always remain so near and dear to my heart.

I can’t change what I have done in my past or what I have said in my past that may offend people. I can’t take back the sour taste I must have left in people’s mouths (family members included) when I was in a bad mood.

I was that one person that would wake up in a bad mood or someone would rub me the wrong way and I would let everyone know about it.

I was that person. A very negative person. Not a very strong person. I’ve always had my faith but I just didn’t use it right for lack of a better term.

I knew that I wanted to be an uplifting person and someone to help others through watching me live for Christ in hopes that one day, I will lead someone to Jesus or to calm an overwhelmed, stressful new mommy or even a 3rd or 4th time mommy down through my writing or even fb posts or just the way they see me interact with my kids when we are out and about.

My kids aren’t perfect. They cry, pitch fits, say mean things to me every now and then. They get their share of toys taken away and time outs. But over all, I hardly feel overwhelmed with my kids. Even when we are in the store and Noah doesn’t want to sit in his carseat that is attached to the buggy and I have to hold him while pushing that heavy buggy around. At the same time, Matthew wants to walk instead of sitting in the back of the buggy so I’m also making sure he keeps his hands on the buggy. It gets pretty chaotic at times. But I am just so thankful through it all. Because I prayed for kids -boys at that- and so I am ready to tackle everything that comes with the package. I’m not saying I never get stressed because I do. I’m just saying that through Christ, I’m able to deal with it. 🙂

Back to what I was saying, I know the sour taste I have left in people’s mouths. I can’t change their opinions of me. But I sure can work as hard as I can to make sure I don’t give them anymore reasons to have a sour taste.

I am not trying to be a hypocrite by no means. I’m only human. I still vent and make people mad. I just limit the people I vent to and how often i do it and I try hard every day to make sure I am uplifting, even on bad days. This change was made thanks to God and Him alone. I knew I needed to change. I knew I wasn’t happy with the person I was becoming or the person others perceived me as. And I am so thankful that I have a Savior to turn to because He is the one that brought me up.

I am thankful for the people God has put in my path and in my every day life. No one has touched the love I have in my heart for the person I lost last year (no one died for the record). And no one ever will. But God has shown me how to accept new friendships and how to have friendships through Him again. And now that I see how everything is unfolding, I know that God was preparing me for something bigger. I am finally finding my purpose in this little life of mine. God has laid the path for me and I am willing to take it.

Some days are harder than others. When I started this post, I was in a funk but maybe this is what I needed. Because I am ready to tackle my day now. I am a work in progress. It’s an uphill battle. There are aspects about my spiritual life that I’d like to change and I know that as long as I keep going and working for God that it will change.

I just want to be uplifting and for my boys to look at me and see a strong Mommy. A happy Mommy. A spiritual Mommy. A fun Mommy.

And as for my husband, I want him to look at me and see the same things. Words can’t express what God has done in my marriage just by the works He has done in me. Who would have thunk?! I actually needed to change somethings about myself to see a change in my marriage?! Something for every married person to think about. 😉

Bottom line is, I am thankful, so very thankful for the wife, mother, and friend God has instilled in me. It’s not easy and it’s something I work hard for each and every day. But by His grace alone, I will succeed.

Thank you for reading. 🙂

Thoughts…

A few thoughts:

VeggieTales just scared Matthew and made him cry…
Are you as confused as I am?!
I hope that one episode didn’t make him anti-Vegietales because he has learned so much from watching them.

I am so thankful for the very few people who love me even after they got to know me…

I will be starting preschool with Matthew in August and if I told you I wasn’t scared one bit, it would be a big fat lie!!!!

Matthew turns 4 in a couple weeks. It’s always bitter-sweet when your babies get older. You’re proud of them but at the same time, you’re a little sad because you want them to always be your babies.

Planning his party has been pretty stress free this year and I have no idea why. Not one single clue. Maybe I’ve just learned to pick my battles?

My to-do list is about 5 miles long. :-/

Noah has 2 teeth, eats mashed potatoes (along with other babyfood), sits up (still kind of wobbly), army crawls everywhere and is into EVERYTHING. Regular crawls when he’s excited enough. He tried helping me with the dishes tonight. He finally likes my singing. And he’s the happiest lil baby. And boy does he love his big bro. 😉

Updates on his 6 month well check coming soon.

Thankful

I don’t know what it is with me and Facebook. Seriously. I had to delete it again. My mind started getting fuzzy again and I found myself on it more than I should have been. I just couldn’t get it together on Monday. First of all, it was a Monday. That should be enough said right there. But on top of that, I just couldn’t put my iPod down. Well, I wasn’t on it constantly but I was still on it more than I should have been. And I did not accomplish everything I set out to get done. I ended the day disappointed in myself and that is no longer acceptable in my life. So anyway, maybe one day I can have the life I want and need and be able to juggle Facebook too but not today.

I look forward to Bible study every week. Granted, it doesn’t happen “every” week. But let’s face it, we are 2 very busy SAHM’s but we make it happen as often as possible. I am very thankful for that time. I leave every time with such fulfillment and with such energy. Ready to tackle the new goals I have set out to do. But then I come home, go to sleep, and wake up in the morning. And it’s pretty much on a day to day basis. lol But these days, most days are more positive than others.

We have been watching Wising Up with Beth Moore and ill have a blog post on the series I just read up soon.

I am so thankful for the things God is doing in my life and the scripture I am learning through my Bible study AND how to use it in my every day life. I am thankful for the people He has put in my life. I am thankful for the person He is turning me into. The MOM, WIFE, friend, daughter, grand daughter… And I am reminded of those words “there is always room for improvement”. 😉

I have a wonderful support group and most importantly, God’s love. Today, I am ready to tackle tomorrow. I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow, and face the day. And take whatever God has planned for me.

Right now, I am on a mountain. Things look optimistic. They look achievable. I’ve got new goals planned and I intend to stick to them.

As I look back at all of the events that has happened to me within the past few days. Weeks even, I know NOW more than ever that God has just been preparing me for what’s to come. And I am overjoyed. I think I can see where I am being lead but I’ll definitely wait on God and see if I’m right.

I prayed over this blog tonight. I prayed that God would bless this blog. I want to be an inspiration to people. To other young, new, and old moms. Stay at home and working moms. God has put such woman in my life recently and I believe it was to show me that I am not the only one out there fighting these same daily battles. And if I never get more that the 3-4 followers that I currently have but I help or inspire ONE person then my rambles are worth it.

Mommy Days are fun, 3 yr olds are fun, and my opinion on fashion…

Being a Mommy to a 3 (almost 4) year old is fun.

Especially when they are Iron Man and they go on a killing streak.

I died about 15 times while putting the dishes in the dishwasher yesterday.

Mommy time is awesome and well deserved for any mom every once in a while.

I had a fantastic Mommy Day out. Sometimes it’s hard to know what looks right so that’s why I’m glad I have texting. =) I am still able to ask other people’s opinions with out them physically being there. Thankful for that. Although, I was pretty set on what I was gonna get even if no one else liked it. That’s just how I am sometimes.

I got to go shopping and I didn’t have to rush through the store, through the clothes, and in the dressing room. I had no set time to be back home, just a reasonable time because let’s face it, I have to be responsible and get my daily stuff done, especially when I don’t have my boys here.

I did notice a couple things today while looking at clothes.

1. Just because they make skinny jeans in plus sizes doesn’t make it right to wear them.

assuming you are a bigger woman.

Not sayin’ you can’t  wear skinny jeans, I’m just sayin’, in my opinion, you shouldn’t.

Especially when your thighs stick out past your belly… (ahem…)

And definitely don’t buy them. Because if you buy them, you will most likely wear them…

2. Just because they make dresses with elastic is your size (if you are plus size)

doesn’t mean it’s gonna look good on you. Granted, some things do. But not everything.

3. Horizontal stripes of any kind… wide, skinny, chevron… makes a bigger person look even bigger. True story. so you shouldn’t wear that either…in my opinion.

With ME being a plus (kinda) size girl, I can tell you all of the above is true. So I’m not just being a fashion boss or judgmental  I am speaking from experience.

Ok, I’m not plus size per say but I am also not a size large… I’m on the bigger side.

So anyway, I wanted to buy EVERYTHING just about today.

I am rarely in one of those moods because my house is too small.

But today, I just KNEW that if I bought all the things that I wanted, I would find a place to put them in my tiny house.

But $6.99 for this and $9 for that adds up so I just stuck with what I went in there for…a shirt.

Annnnd maybe a pair of capris and a pair of shorts…

and some greeting cards.

I think I have a shopping problem…

Enough with this post for now. Housewife duty calls.

I am working on 2 more different blog posts currently. It’s just taking some time to concoct.

Some of the stuff I am wanting to write about is a little on the personal side (but I am being encouraged by a few people to write about them and document them) so if you find me interesting in the least, you will want to read them…maybe?

I have started keeping notes so that when I do sit down to write, it doesn’t take as long.

It works sometimes but not today.

I went back and forth on continuing on one of the other posts or start a new post. New post won.

so now after an hour, I am finally done.

bye for today.

=)